Mom is hanging in there. Her voice has been hoarse the last few days. She has severe swelling in her legs so it is difficult to walk and sit. She gets tired of sitting all the time, but that is all she can do, since she wouldn't be able to breathe if she slept flat on her back. For Thanksgiving, she's not going to be around the food, and maybe that's for the best, since she can't eat very much at a time...not much at all. She'll still have her family visiting that day, so hopefully she can have a good holiday.
Mom, I wish you didn't have to feel what it's like for your body not to work for you anymore. I wish you could sleep well without putting effort into it. I wish you could get around and go anywhere you want, and I wish we could go places with you. I wish you could eat what you want, and have a healthy appetite. I wish you could cook and enjoy more things, and do whatever you want to do. This will go away, and you will feel better...it's all just difficult.
I almost don't want to mention this, because we know things will get harder. (I choose to live in the NOW if possible, and enjoy being together). Here is a good scripture to remember:
D&C 122:7: "And if...the sentence of death passed upon thee; if thou be cast into the deep; if the billowing surge conspire against thee; if fierce winds become thine enemy; if the heavens gather blackness, and all the elements combine to hedge up the way; and above all, if the very jaws of hell shall gape open the mouth wide after thee, know thou, my son, that all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good." This is for Mom and the rest of us.
D&C 121:7: "My son, peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment."
I've said it before...I KNOW our trials are for the best. If this is the Lord's will, there's a reason for it (or several reasons). We will be refined, perfected and taught, and some day, probably in the far future, we will understand and be grateful for this trial. Right now I am thankful for a righteous mother and the family I was born into. I'm thankful for our Savior that will make it all better. Like a friend of mine says, "I know he holds my heart together with His hands."
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ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for all you and your family are going through. I pray that everyone will feel peace and comfort from the pain you all are feeling. It saddens me to hear what your mother is experiencing. She is a strong lady. May the Lord be with you all during this time.
ReplyDeleteWe love you Aunt Karen, we know you are a choice spirit. We are so very grateful for the good times and memories in life we have had together. We know we will be see and be together again. We will see you you even more- forever. I know how much your children and grandchildren have meant to you. We will take care of them and stay close. Know you have been a great example to our family. I wish you peace in this hard hard trial you are enduring. I hope the pain will not be to hard. Have a peaceful Thanksgiving Day. Love you and Russell, and family very much. Tangie and Rolf.
ReplyDeleteWe love you all and know what you are going through..just know that you are not alone ever. Our prayers are with you and your family tonight..we are so very sorry for your loss. She is a great lady. We will miss her. May the Lord be with you all! Dennis and Lynette Muir and family
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